May 27, 2006

Gah!

Well it seems my relationship with N. has not only wound down, it has come to a screeching halt. We "talked" when he got back from his weekend away and decided that this relationship wasn't going anywhere and it was time to call it a day.

Or to be more precise, he decided it was time to call it a day. Yes, sad to say ol' Suzy-Q got dumped.

I find myself mourning not-so-much losing him perse, more losing the relationship itself. After almost a year of being a "couple" and no longer [shudder] single, I had kinda gotten used to having someone there. Someone to talk to, share things with and care for.

The past few days have been a rollercoaster of emotions. Relief on one hand, that one of us finally had the gonads to say "hey, this isn't love!"; and heartache, over the loss of what was essentially a very close friendship. I miss him, but in the same breath I also feel a sense of freedom.

Don't try to figure it out, I ended up with a headache trying to analyze it myself.

3 comments:

moon said...

You already figured it out Sue...no need for needless headaches lol...I am sorry you lost the *friendship* but not sorry that u have stopped wasting time in a relationship that was essentially just *settling* for lack of something ELSE... Sue..this is definately a GOOD THING...and frankly, we aren't getting any younger..no time to waste on *meer friendship...It will be easier now, before u were single for a long time..ppl get into a rut..its not the case now..you will much easier be able to meet and mingle..seriously..I have every confidense you will be meeting someone that will make your heart beat faster.

Shannon said...

*nodding*

Yeah, what Moonie said!

Jennyta said...

You know what they say, Sue: What's meant for you won't go past you - hopefully that counts for men as well! Take care.